We knew this day would come, although we didn't expect it to happen as it did. My Mama went to be with her Maker in Heaven last Thursday. God took her the way she would wanted: quickly, before Daddy, and before her mind was too far gone. Mama was a devout Catholic; there's no doubt in anyone's mind where she is.
I am so thankful that God saw fit to put me into a large family with this mama & daddy. They truly loved each other: they were married for 61 years. She, along with Daddy, showed all of us children what to look for in a spouse, and how to be a good parent. They taught us morality and compassion. They taught us how to laugh and not take ourselves too seriously. Mama taught us to love music...all kinds of music. At one time, she wanted to be a concert pianist, but then decided she wanted to eat (she wasn't too hyped up on being a starving artist!). She also thought about being a nun, but met Daddy and had 10 children. She was a nurse by training, which came in handy with all of us kids.
She was beautiful...inside and out. She was always smiling (it hit me the other day that people say the same thing about me), even when she was in pain. She never, ever complained about her hip or back pain unless you asked her about it. And her laugh...How I loved her laugh. And her singing. She was the organist at church for 42 years and the choir director for most of that time. She & Daddy moved to this area shortly after the Catholic Church we attend began. She & Daddy very rarely missed Daily Mass. Mom would lead the congregation in singing the hymns during those masses. The priest told me on Sunday that she kept all of them in line when they needed it!
Mama loved her family & God: Her family and the Church were her life. She was such an incredible woman and amazing mother. As one of my sisters said: we knew we were loved...always.
I know there are going to be times when I think of things to tell her, ask her, or just things I see that I want to share with her. It's going to be hard to not be able to pick up the phone and talk to her. I'm going to miss her calling me and asking for help figuring out her cell phone or something on the computer when my oldest brother wasn't around or they didn't want to bother him.
She is in a much better place: she's not hurting, and she's not worrying. I imagine she's up there praying for all of us, and getting started on lists that 1 of her friends said she's already hit her up for! I know she's reunited with her mama & daddy, and all of her siblings, and they're having quite the reunion, just as all of my siblings were getting together at their house. That's the way she would have wanted it.
If you've lost a parent, you probably know the feeling of the huge hole in my heart that I have. I just wasn't ready for her to go, but then again, I probably never would have been. I'm just very, very grateful that she didn't suffer through a prolonged illness, because she definitely wouldn't have wanted that.