I remember coming home from work a few years ago and nobody was home: my oldest was away at college, the middle was at football practice, and the youngest at band practice. I just stood in my kitchen & thought, "What am I going to do when all of the boys are gone and they don't need me to be home?" I mentioned that to CH, and he said, "You're going to take time for you."
This summer (since I don't work in the summer), I'm really enjoying the quietness of the house during the day; I don't even turn on the tv, and it's REALLY nice. I've always been the person who had to have noise...any noise. The tv, radio, it really didn't matter. I still have to have noise when I go to sleep (I go to sleep with the tv on; CH sets the timer when he goes to bed), but it's so nice during the day. I hear the birds chirping, an occasional mower, kids playing behind us, and the cars going by the house. And, if we're lucky, I'll hear thunder in the distance and the rain that sometimes comes along with it. It's just nice.
During this past school year, there were days when I would stay at school until 5:00...just because I could, and needed to. I had such a crazy, stressful year that I needed to stay to get organized for the next time I was at that school, as well as to do paperwork. With the change in one of my schools and a lower caseload, I'm hoping that won't be the case next year.
On the days when I didn't need to stay late, I would go home and crash. Sometimes I would practice my flute, other times I would just sit; because I needed to.
I'm learning to take time for me. MS' girlfriend mentioned the other day that I've been a mom for 1/2 of my life. WOW. I hadn't thought of that before then. Half of my life I've been taking care of someone else; I've been responsible for another person. It is time for me. Even though YS is still living at home, he's doing his own thing, and we're trying to let him be as independent as he can be. We only have another year with him at home, and then he'll be off for his last 2 years in college.
So, I'm learning to enjoy the quiet, as well as doing things for me. And you know what? It's actually kind of nice.